Antzy Pants
I am feeling very antzy over this trip to Nashville. I am looking forward to going there but right now I am just really feeling anxious over it.I can’t wait to just step on the plane and get over this anxiety feeling.
Baby Shower
One baby shower done! Carisa and Sean had their baby shower yesterday. It was so cute. It was very simple but it was nice to be able to have everyone gathered together and having fun.
Stormy was there with her family and I borrowered her littlest boy, Henry. Surprisingly enough, he stuck with me for about one hour. According to all the family and friends that is a shocker because he typically doesn’t like to go to anyone than really Mom, Dad, and Gramma. :And I even had him turn away from his momma …. Oh I can’t wait for that day for my little one.
Now we have two or three more baby showers to go. Its gonna be little bit of baby heaven around here. 
Evening Run with the pups ..
Yesterday was a good day. My food was pretty solid all day and when I got home at night, me and the pups went on a walk/ jog for 3.44 miles, burned 400 calories. It was nice to be able to be outside and running again. It wasn’t bad at all; not too warm, not too cold, a slight breeze. It was great; I felt so good when I came home afterwards as well. I am really going to get back in the habit of doing this at least 3-4 nights a week.
Thomas Graduation ..
Our friend, Thomas graduated from college today. Woohoo!! I am so proud of him. He has worked REALLY hard for it and he deserves it.
It was fun to be able to go and I was REALLY glad that I was there to enjoy his day with him. It meant a lot to us and him so it was nice to be there.
Before we went to his graduation, Vincent met me in Lake Oswego and we had dinner together at Hunan Pearl. Then, we went to his graduation, hung out with Thomas and his parents for awhile.
Afterwards, we all went out for ice cream at Basket Robbins. Never get a girl behind the wheel that wants ice cream … you never know what she will do. Like drive in the wrong lane (sorry about the heart attack there Sean), haha.
Congrads Tommy. You did it. NOW its time to use some of that edumcation. :) LOVE YA!
Brandi Carlile
We went and saw Brandi Carlile in concert tonight. She is WONDERFUL singer, artist, and entertainer.
I fell in love with her music after Vincent introduced me to it and I loved it so much that as soon as I heard she was coming to town, I REALLY wanted to see her and I knew that he would LOVE to go and see her as well.
She has such an amazing voice; she just knows how to put on a good show. I can’t wait until she comes again in the fall.
We also heard of another new favorite artist, who opened for Brandi in Portland tonight. He was pretty awesome; I hope we are able to find some music of his.
My Week is Planned Out ..
My week is PLANNED! Here is my menu for the week ….I’ve also have my exercise planned laid out and talked to my trainer so I know that we are both on the same page. I’ve thrown in some extra cardio as well. My plan is ALL my menu as well. I am going to try to my hardest to try to get Vincent out on a walk/ jog with me at least 3x this week. I could be a challenge but I am trying to help him as well.
- Monday — Full Body
- Tuesday — Chest and Biceps (with you)
- Wednesday — BW Only Day OR Legs and Shoulders
- Thursday — Back and Triceps (with you)
- Friday — BW Only Day OR Legs and Shoulders
A good well planned week makes for a successful one. Now all the work is to execute it!!!
Learning a new career path ??
Having some random thoughts of what I want to be when I grow up going through this head of mine. On one hand, I want to do something fitness related as I’ve learned to love it more and more (though I just don’t have the time to give that I would like) but then again, I would love to do something marketing/ design. I would love to do something artsy (so probably more design than marketing) though I don’t know if I have an artist bone in my bone; I have a desire to learn.
So right now I am looking into doing both and hope to be able to find something that each day when I wake up that I am going to enjoy instead of dread.
Just for the record, its not the mortgage industry that I hate but its the people who I work with that make it hard to go to work each day.
Im excited that I might be starting a new journey, new path in my life. I just want to find something, I will be able to enjoy and also be able to utilize in my career especially when I have a family.
Until then ….. I am thinking what do I want to do when I grow up ?????
Having a hard time mentally …
I’ve been having a hard time mentally lately. I am not feeling happy about a lot of areas of my life but for whatever reason I feel like I can’t change them and I am just spinning my wheels. I feel like the ONE thing that I’ve always hoped for, dreamed for isn’t coming in my time frame and I get frustrated. Until then I just feel like I am running around in circles in my life and not happy with it.
Its not like me to get discouraged easily but lately it doesn’t take much to get me discouraged. I know that part of it is that I am TIRED, dogtired. Doesn’t seem like it matters what I do but I am always tired.
Part of the discouragement comes from that I swear that EVERYONE around me is getting pregnant whether they want to be pregnant or not and they haven’t had any problems. All they do is try once and bam its happening for them. Its like baby hell around me and the problem is that I LOVE my friends, I love that they are excited to be parents, I love children but I feel like I am trying my hardest to get pregnant and now going on some EXTREMES to get there and still nothing and I am getting discouraged. I feel like there is something wrong with me and then there are those people who almost act like there is something wrong with you because you can’t just get pregnant. I hate to even say something anymore because I just feel like its just gonna be disappointment later on. There are days, I just want to cry and this week is ONE OF THEM.
I was talking to Vincent the other night and I just said that I am tired, I am tired of going to a job that I hate (worse part of my job is the people; not the work just the more and more that I am around it, the more I see that some things never change) doing something with my life that I am not happy with and not really feeling like I am getting the MOST out of. It almost seems like the opposite; like its sucks the life out of me. His reply: QUIT and find something you love and enjoy. Easier said than done but I am looking into that right now. I am going to spend some time tomorrow and this weekend on doing that; trying to figure out what I want to do and where I am going to go. I know that part of me being tired is my company demands a lot of time ofbeing at the office and also just the drive there. It’s wearing me thin and Ifeel like this could be contributing to my fertility problems as well. Sigh.
I hate to be a whiner but I just needed to get this off my chest. I am feeling so much in the blues … Nashville can’t come soon enough because I get to get away for awhile, doing something that I love. I just wish that my sweetie was going to be with me.
I know what I need to do to change, not one person can change that but me but sometimes I just feel like I am a paralyzed with fear. Fear of upsetting my employer, upsetting my family, feeling like I don’t have a direction to go in if I am not going to be a mom right now. That is what I want……. I guess I just need to sit down and figure out what it is that I REALLY want and how I am going to get there.
Acupuncture
Today, I went in for my first acupuncture appointment. It was interesting. I am not sure how much it can really help in a few area of my health but I am REALLY willing to give it a shot and be willing to be open minded about it. I mean I figure what can it hurt …. I was a little worried going in, I had crazy thoughts and dreams about it like being paralyzed or contracting some sort of disease or bleeding to death. I dont know why because I’ve been around it before just not on me.
Right now I am in a spot in my life, I am just willing to be open minded about EVERYTHING and so it is why I went to my first appointment and scheduled my next one.
New Truck & Great Weekend ..
There is nothing better than an awesome weekend spending with my sweetie and my friends. I loved spending time with the people who I love.
Saturday we finally were able to find a truck to buy. We’ve been talking, mulling this over for awhile, looking at trucks online so we just finally set some time aside to go and LOOK physcially.
We found what we were exactly looking for. 2003 Ford F150. Its a sweet truck and I know that its going to serve us well.
Afterwards we went to dinner, listened to some live music, JACK MCMAHON with Thomas at McMenamins then we decided to go to a movie. We watched the new Star Trek movie. It was good for even those who aren’t a big Star Trek junkie.
Sunday, we hung out with Thomas for awhile at his new place at Timber. Its a sweet new place and its going to be fun hanging out there especially this summer/ fall with hunting, fishing, target practice, playing in the creek. YAH! Is it the weekend again? The dogs LOVED running around and exploring around. They were dog tired by the end of the day.
I love that summer is finally here and the sun is out and we are LOVING it as a family.
